Transitional Blogiarrhea

Okay. The past few posts have been admit tingly random and blah. I didn’t like them, and nor did many of you. The “Going ONE Better” was so fake-sounding. I so over-exaggerated everything. Fine ONE TV is doing well, but it’s not as if the world had found a cure for AIDS. It sounded like that didn’t it? “Oh One is brilliant” and "so is their website" and "wow" this and "wow" that – bull shit. ONE's good, and I appreciate what ONE’s done, but there was no friggin’ substance in my post. It seems as though I was trying too bloody hard. My sister blurted that out to me yesterday, as frankly as she always does, and however much I am not supposed to 'like' it, I appreciate the honesty, because it does make sense. Thanks & damn.

And to add salt to these unsympathetic wounds, “anonymous’s” were on a rampage. What I am about to say does not refer to any of the genuine anonymous commenters who actually constructively criticize and state their opinion. In fact I respect their genuineness. But what’s annoying is when people from my school, who are in my friggin’ class, who I probably know damn well, start posting blatantly offensive, anonymous comments which make no sense and are just put forth to satisfy their desire to extract envious, sadistic pleasure. Screw you guys. It’s evident that you guys don’t have the balls to have an identity, and that you prefer masking your sadism behind this “anonymous” image. It’s so shit, and it just shows how fake you people are, because you require some other random anonymous image to prove to the world that this blogger sucks. Grow up guys, quick.

Let me quote a few examples:

“Anonymous said...

malpani u be a gud advertising agent ... man many companies will come to u onli 4 da reason dat dey hav to advertise their product ..

November 28, 2006 7:32 PM”

What’s the point of saying something like that? I’d rather prefer you tell me what the hell is wrong with my post in a ‘dignified’ manner, as Ashiq puts it, rather than saying such baseless rubbish. Tell me that the post sucked because it lacked substance and effort, and because it was exaggerated. I’ll accept it, and feel bad at the same time, not at you, but at myself. That way, you’ll get your sick sadistic pleasure too.

“Anonymous said...

crap malpani.....advertising for one tv

November 28, 2006 1:24 PM “

Another sad comment…

And I will never get this dude:

“Anonymous said...

No holiday on wed and thurs. That's just effing sad innit?

November 25, 2006 7:21 PM “

Why the hell do you have to go anonymous to say something like that? It’s obvious – you are from my school, probably from my grade, and I don’t think you have anything to hide. Sometimes I just don’t get people. Generally, I try and ignore such bull shit , but I just felt like – WTF? – let’s try and knock some sense in to those that are making this blogosphere a joke.

Rajiv put it rightly to me today at lunch - blogs are suddenly becoming ‘status symbols’ – it’s “hip” to have a blog, and that’s bloody sad. Get a grip of yourself and let’s pursue mature and interesting and worthy-of-reading discussions.

My previous blog post on the summary of the current status of the blogosphere was way out of line. Once again, my sister did the reminding. I breached the most important unsaid rule of blogging. Blogging is never discussed outside the blogosphere, nor is it meant to be ‘reviewed’ like I did in that earlier post. I apologize for that. It’s just that I am in this transitional “Blogiarrhea” where I am not blogstipated, but am just getting to conscious of what I am posting, so I am posting excessively, thinking too much about it, and the result is utter embarrassment on retrospection. “Will my readers like it? Is it cool enough? Is this wise-crack funny or lame?” These are stupid questions I don’t need to ask myself. Suddenly I have become excessively formal and superficial and it’s bothering me. Maybe the pressure of having a decent number of readers is getting to me, and yeah you anonymous ball-less people don’t help either. I am not going to delete the posts that I am not ‘proud’ of because that’s like running away from the truth. And I hate that.

As for you commenters/readers, I love reading your genuine comments, whether they are appreciative or dogmatic or derogatory, as long as they have substance. So please continue to do so. Lose the unnecessary anonymous comments though. This obviously does not refer to those anonymous’ who just want to state their substantiated opinion in a dignified manner. That’s perfectly fine. All bloggers want comments, and these comments sustain us in their own little way. Also, there exists an unsaid competition with these comments amidst fellow bloggers, which is only natural. It’s not necessarily good, and it’s worse when people try and re-state and glorify something so unnecessary just to draw more sick pleasure.

On Harry’s blog…

“Other said...

Congrats, you've got more posts on your 3rd post than Anish got in his 20+ posts. Not a competition I know. You've written a good post that everyone has a different stand on.

6:34 AM “

This ‘Other’ dude is definitely from our school. Why try and hide yourself, and why the fuck do you have to mention my name and get me unnecessarily involved? You knew you were trying to sting my ego with something like that. Fine if you wrote that comment as yourself, as someone I knew, I wouldn’t care because I would know you were trying to pull my leg. But the very fact that you went anonymous proves your friggin’ sadistic motives. Harry got 52 comments on that and I am proud of him. But you, you need to lose the polite way of bringing in something that had nothing to do with Harry's initial post.

Anyway, I won’t be surprised if you anonymous commenters flip over something like this. I really don’t care. It's only in your sadistic nature to rub salt in open wounds. Just like you have a friggin’ opinion on everything, so do I. But the only difference is that I have the balls to say it as myself.

Anyway, this transitional phase should pass. All phases teach you something and this has too. I need to worry less about what the world will think about me, and try and prevent myself from glorifying an image that ‘my blog greatest’. This blog is for me and I want to enjoy it. Screw everything else.

P.S. For all the bajpai-like-thinkers, I have started, or rather, am starting, a parallel blog dedicated only to my passion - football.