Wednesday, January 31, 2007

The Last Official Day...


31st January, 2007. Wow. School is finally over. Finally? Haha. No more of fighting with your sleep in the morning, no more of sitting in boring Chemistry classes, no more annoying sessions of prep, no more “punishments”, no more of “volcanoes” and other annoying people, no more of dealing with school politics, no more childish cat-fights and no more minor acts of homosexuality. That’s it. It’s all over - a hurdle crossed, a bar cleared, a mountain conquered, a story written, the Section A of “Life” is over. Wow. I should be happy and glad for my childhood prayers have been answered, right?

But then why is it suddenly so difficult to accept? I have been waiting for this moment (and of course, also for end March), and now that I am experiencing it, I just want to rewind, or relive, or continue in the same old cycle, with the same old people, enjoying the same old friendship, the same old flow of love (however corny that sounds), the same old sense of belonging, the same old same old. It’s difficult dealing with attachment, detachment seems almost impossible.

Today was full of contrasting emotions. First was pride. Our slightly younger peers, i.e Grade 11, blew me (us) away with a beautiful rendition of voices and passion. Then the hypocrisy seemed to seep in, not from them, but generally, and that left me wondering negatively. Loads of pictures, rehearsals, autographs (weirdly enough), hugs and smiles followed. I felt happy and sad. Happy for I would be running away from the wasteful and unnecessary politics and wrongness, and sad as I will not get to spend time with those genuine people that I have genuinely grown close to. Sad - more, for I will miss the pure stupidity that elated us, that moment of immaturity that broke my heart, only to mend itself into a stronger one and the pure respect and love that I and we received from those that saw well in us. From the subtle encouragement of our teachers, to some moments of their sheer brilliance, to their acceptance of our failure, to their respect for our honesty, to their company for our pleasure, to their guidance and support in times of our weakness – it just blows me away. There is so much good and bad, but to appreciate the good and learn from the bad is to make the most of what you get.

It is confusing, this emotion. I know I will miss school and that I will always have this un-destroyable desire to return to school, but at the same time I know I have to look beyond it and dive into the realms of what the future holds for me. I will miss our school and the people I have grown to love, but I will not forget them and those that have changed my life, and taught me it’s greatest lessons. I don’t need signed shirts to do that. I will forget the bad, and make my own soft hours to which I can turn to. This contradiction leaves me almost emotionless – I can’t believe there is no more school.

P.S. Attachment can be a source of annoyance, but it’s the greatest sustainer. Wow – now I am philosopher. Anyway, I still have 2 months of studying left, the before-party, the farewell dinner, the board exams, and the Sports Day to look forward too. Not quite completely over yet now, huh?

Saturday, January 27, 2007

"Love's Sweet Salute"


Movie: Salaam-e-Ishq
Length: 220 minutes = 3 hrs 40 mins
Feedback: Fake, 'Faltu' and Filmy

How long can a movie get? How pathetic can acting become? How boring can a feature film be? Salaam-e-Ishq answers all of the above questions more convincingly and satisfying-ly than any other film I have seen to date. It broke records - we actually walked out after the interval.

Why? It’s as if the God wanted to make a really bad film and thought of taking it out on Bollywood. “Inspired” from the classy English film ‘Love Actually’, Salaam-e-Ishq couldn’t go that wrong now could it? Well it did. Sprayed with “un-inspiring” songs and road-side acting, I cannot really point out any positives. Yes the caste seemed very impressive, but figure the following: Vidya Balan is not bad, but is un-pretty and fat; John Abraham is John “too-cool-but-fake-ironed-hair” Abraham; Salman Khan is the epitome of fake + annoying; Priyanka Chopra is fatter and fake-r than ever; Govinda is half decent, but annoying to people who have a general disgust for him; Anil Kapoor hardly speaks a word, but a random, hot, young girl kisses him on the cheek for doing her a small favour, and thus begins a desperate extra-marital wannabe love-affair; Akshaye Khanna is the best over-actor ever and Sohail Khan ridiculously just doesn’t ‘get’ any, but the car in which he is trying to “do it” does fall into his parents’ new house through the roof, but no one dies.

Basically, it was utter bullshit, which was not funny in any way, and this we figured after watching 90 minutes of it, only 130 minutes were left when we walked out. Now if 90 minutes can’t sustain you…

Fine, I guess a story can never, and should never go wrong when it comes to love, but this movie proves even that wrong. As an Aaj Tak reported put it, somewhere within the Fat Lady that is Salaam-e-Ishq, the Thin Lady is waiting to burst out, but the friggin’ flab is too much of an obstruction. I laughed a lot during this Fat Lady. I laughed at the crowd which laughed at the lamest of jokes, I laughed at the ridiculousness of the film, I laughed at Salman Khan for he is one funny pain-in-the-butt and I laughed at myself for paying 35 dirhams to watch this film.

So my advice – don’t you dare watch Salaam-e-Ishq. And if you do, please feel free to walk out whenever you wish. You can enjoy the sheer stupidity of it, but even that gets annoying after some time. To me, this movie is a definition of what not to make and what not to see, so if you are still trying to figure what that is, then it’s a must see.

P.S. It was my sister and my cousin who “forced” me to watch this film.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Penn Masala: The American-Indian Talent + For Facebook Lovers

Penn Masala - in a nutshell - they make me proud! They are a bunch of Indian students studying in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania who have formed an A Capella group. They are the first group in the world to play Hindi A Capella songs, but what's brilliant about them is they way the bridge cultures and mix styles inculcating English, Hindi and Arabic in their songs which are vocally excellent. My favourite covers by them are "Aicha" and "Maa Tujghe Salaam". You can hear their music on - www.pennmasala.com

I got to know "Penn Masala" through this awesomely hilarious video made by them. It's titled "The Facebook Skit".



It's funny, plus the singing is awesome, and the redone words of Enrique's "Hero" are brilliantly intelligently funny. They have so much talent, and I hope they make it bigger than ever! Kudos and good luck to them.

P.S. Friggin' inspiring.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Becks In The States


" It's tantamount to a semi retirement isn't it? "
-Gary Lineker on Beckham's move.

Totally. It's an escape, with a hint of exploration for Becks, and family. Obviously, Becks’ PR agent is brilliantly diplomatic, for all his public statements are a hundred percent politically and “for-good-image”-ly correct. Apparently he is in it only to raise the "soccer-bar" of the USA. Right. But credit to David on that. How much ever he does get the stick, there is this general radiation of genuineness in Beckham which must be appreciated. But his wife? Well let’s just leave that bit to the “Insider”.

Let us first understand the enormity of this contract – 128 million pounds of 5 years – yes 128 with 6 zeros, to play for an American “Soccer” Team, in country which calls the age-old game of football, “Soccer”! All in all, the moneys adds up to about 26 million pounds a year, and about 490,000 pounds a week, which is about 70,000 pounds a day. Yes I know everyone can do the math, and everyone knows the “figure(s)”, but I need to reiterate – It’s a bloody large sum of money! All I am saying, Mr Beckham, is that, being Godly is all good, but a sum like that would attract even Him. So it wouldn’t be all that bad to admit the fact that, well yes, the money is a ‘fair’ factor, and along with that, “I can also bring about some growth in the MLS, and take American “soccer” to another level” and the other rot. A good counter on that statement of mine would be that Becks has enough already with all his endorsements, so more of these “paper-notes” wouldn’t make that much of a difference to him, but humanity and Posh are different. We humans spend a lot if we can and so does she, maybe her a 'little' more than we can, and when you have 3 mouths to fill, you need that much money now, don’t you?

Sorry, that does sound a little harsh, but sometimes it’s so glaring that we debate only because of the severity of the situation, which goes beyond reason. Let’s not do that. I feel the money is one of the major factors to David's departure and a sum like that will always be - just accept it - no one’s going to kill you. Another "factor", according to me, is Posh. The Hitler-Beckham would love to go the States right, and to Los Angeles? Jackpot!Well to put it nicely 'the family' would love to spend time in one of the most livable places in the world. Now if one women could get a reward for the highest amount of ‘influencing-of-a-man’, it would be the spicy Victoria. From the wackiest haircuts that sometimes even the most open minded people found horrendous (though some were actually good), to the wrongly spelt Hindi-‘Vhictoria’ tattoo, Posh has shaped the pink-man that David is today. Well she is his wife, so it’s not all that bad, but ever since the one thing he is half-good at, “football” has gone no where. His hair, his tattoos, the children, the money, some more hair and so on have been the center of his life. But then, we shouldn’t take anything away from David, after all the best men are the family men. But Davy-boy, let's leave all that apart, just tell us gossip-hungry sadists the real reason for your new pursuit - that’s all I want.

Maybe I am making a big deal out of the family factor and the female-Hitler, but hey how deceiving is what appears? We will never know. So for my selfish pleasure, I write this half-sadistic post and try and ridicule the living day lights out of the Beckham family.

David Beckham’s right foot is legendary in its own way – but then, that’s it. His time at Manchester is also legendary, but since Madrid, it’s been downhill battle for him, and Posh hasn’t really helped. Will Beckham do any better in a “Galaxy” far, far away? Will he “revolutionize” American soccer? I really don’t think so.

MLS commissioner Don Garber said in a statement: "David transcends the sport and is a cultural icon. David is clearly one of the most recognizable athletes in the world”.

I say: "David is clearly one of the most recognizable male-fashion-icons of world, beyond the little football he can play with his right boot.” But then who the hell am I?

P.S. I superficially apologize for the harshness, but my views stick.


Monday, January 08, 2007

Hot Or Not?

Bored? Don't know what to do? Feel like judging people? Feel like being superficial? Want to be fascinated? Go here and click away: www.hotornot.com - Relax it's not porn, on the contrary, it's "fun, clean and real". Enjoy your moment of pure sadism and required stress-relief. Sometimes judging people is all we can do, so why not do it to those who actually want to be judged?

What the sites does is, it gives you a picture, and asks you to rate that picture on the scale of 1 to 10. That's preposterous, right? Come to think of it, it's unbelievable, the site that is. About 26 million people from all over the world have registered their pictures, and over 12 billion votes have been counted. Now more than a million people can't be wrong. Right? Wow. But I have to admit, it is a little bit of fun. :P

You can add yourself to the "Hot Or Not" list too, but I don't think I want to end up seeing my picture there. Right?

P.S. "Dhruv" (the 8th commenter on my previous post) - Thanks for the link - fascinating...

Saturday, January 06, 2007

3 Months...

3 months and then F R E E D O M - that’s how I like to look at it. But I complain, and keep complaining. I just have to bring up the now age-old debate – “The Indian Syllabus & How Bad It Is…Or Not” - I am writing a book on it. For the look-a-likes, India Today hit out on the Indian Syllabus calling it an “all rote” experience, and a survey of 30,000 students made them conclude that the Indian Syllabus is way behind the international standards. Apparently the 30,000 Indian students’ survey was good enough for researchers to prove that application-wise most Indian-System-bred Indian students can’t be compared with the international-system-ly bred students. Right. It's true, we sometimes just can't apply Newton's 3rd Law, but then how do we still end up doing well? I think we Indians are just too darn hard-working – and that is the greatest lesson the Indian System can inculcate in us, but then, that’s it.

I am not here to enlighten the already enlightened anymore about how wrong the Indian System is, I am here to complain. I hate this time. Beyond the personal stuff, which always gets messed up at this time of the year, the studying has got to me - B I G-time. There are like a billion distractions, and if I can’t find a distraction, I make one, like reading “Aquarius”. Who does that? I watch Al Ahli V Al Wahda on the television, and convince myself as to how “The Bold & The Beautiful” actually has some substance. Facebook is friggin’ addictive, and I can’t stop eating.

At this point, I wrote another 400 words on how I hate “this time”, which I have no intention of putting in, because it’s too darned whiney. So to sum it all up: I can’t, and I mean, I cannot wait for these 3 long, dreary, painful, fattening, annoying and BORING months to bamboozle themselves out of my God-forsaken life.

That felt good – venting helps.

To bring in a little optimism or dreaminess – there is so much to look forward to as soon as the ISC exams end. Ideas and dreams start erupting one after the other as I seem to plan out every single day beyond the trauma. There is so much to do, football, work, Redial Entertainment, salsa (hopefully), football, gym, football, University, and just the ability to watch television for hours without feeling guilty about it. Bliss…

…is 3 months away,

P.S. I think, and only think, that “rote” is a new Indian term for “mugging” as in memorizing. Please do enlighten me if I am wrong.

Monday, January 01, 2007

2oo7

A supposedly “planned” out day almost fell apart thanks to well, “God” and a few other “betrayal- of-trust” people. Okay, We ditched the booze-ful, dance-ful and event-ful party atthe Ranches because it was completely contradictory to our definition of fun. But, we heard a lot later of the eventful night that was at the Ranches. Right. Anyway, the highlight of this day was supposedly the football match between the ex-students of our school and us, the current students. But hey, quite obviously the ex-students didn’t show. Hell the guy who was “organizing” the ex-students himself didn’t show up. Thanks Kumar! But credit to Josie for being a darling, and blessing us with his half-hippie presence. So what started of as a would-be formal match, ended up as Man Utd fans v/s Arsenal fans match (kinda), in which the lucky-asses of Man Utd won. Fine and damn. It was fun, none the less.

The “match” gets over, thanks to another cheap ass goal from the Man Utd wannabes, and they win. Exhausted after 3 hours of passionate football we finally breathe. I apologize to all those affected by my uncalled-for and abusive “football-outbursts”, and then thank Dusty for the balls. It is now time to head for our next endeavour, The Beach. But first we decide to freshen up at the ‘always-and-forever’ hideout/second-home, Romit's House. God bless him, his mum and his dad for their whole-hearted acceptance of us, and or 200+ DB noise level. We take turns to shower, and Ali picks up the guitar which clearly signals the most entertaining aspect of any party – Singing with the Best Guitarist ever. We sing the classics; enjoy the flatness of Romit and Harry, while SK, the quiet and bored observer plays TEKKEN 4. Harry comes up with a new song which Tejas encourages, but Ali almost ignores. Ali’s vibrating vibrato than resonates the room, and then enter antagonist – my headache. Okay before any Ali erupts, it’s not because of Ali’s vibrato, nor because of Harry’s and Romit’s flat voices, but because of the dreaded passion of mine, football. 3 hours of heavy football in the cold, cold, "desert" of Dubai seems to have gotten to my head.

Bharath and the rest of the Gang B enter the fray and meet us at Venus Deluxe Restaurant in Karama, and this happens to the be the most entertaining aspect of our day. Vegetarian food at a cheap-ass, but brilliant restaurant, with 10 other guys, turns out to be the highlight of the day. Tejas' & Ali’s balloon is dressed while we wait for a table. Apparently we are the not only people who end up at Venus for new years dinner. The food we order comes quick, and above all is scrumptious. Everyone enjoys his complicated-concoctedly-named dosa. Bharath’s “Dry Gobi Manchurian” is a hit. We order 4 plates of that, and well each one of us eats our heart out, rekindling the memories of the by-gone year and well, our by-gone lives, in which one of the highlights is a certain senior male computer teacher. Then the bill comes, and we are filled with unexplainable joy – 10 Dirhams per head – that’s how much it costs. This makes the dinner even more satisfying. There is nothing like good, cheap food. Call us “losers”, “faggots” or whatever else, but Venus rocks! Meanwhile, my headache, despite the Panadol, is still pissing the hell out of me.

It’s 11. We desperately want to make it to the beach before 12. I struggle with an aching head, and Harry, the sweet guy he is, offers me his Santa cap. Everyone else is hunting for cabs. But all we find is a hundred other people waiting for cabs. We see an empty cab, but the bastard doesn’t stop for us. He prefers to give the Filipino chicks a ride instead. Ass. We give up cursing all the frustrating frustrated cab drivers of Dubai who can be such…well we just give up. Time to revert to a previously non-existent Plan B – Romit’s play area. Romit’s house/building saves the day yet again.

It’s 11:45 and my head is still spinning. I get annoyed. We are running to make it Romit’s roof on time for new years. The gang races ahead, my headache pulls Tejas, Govind, Bharath and me back. We lose our way and get temporarily lost in Romit's corridor. The clock strikes 12. We are still in the corridor. Wow. New Years in a Corridor - simply brilliant. Tejas and me just look at each other and smile, and memories of previous New Year nights race into our heads – Burjuman, City Center and City Center – 3 places of our 3 previous New Years. Yeah, laugh on.

We finally make it to the roof after wishing a party of random people “Happy New Year” on the way and then observe the environment-unfriendly-but-half-amusing firecrackers that light up the sky. It’s then time to wish the people we care about “Happy New Year”. Hugs are exchanged and so are messages and phone-calls. Clichéd-ly ‘awwww’. My headache is still pissing the hell out of me, and therefore I decide to spend the night at the life-saver Romit’s house. Harry & Ali go randomly missing having well a “chat”, anyway I hope there was nothing sexual about their escape. We get a little scared when Ali tells us that he pissed in Romit’s building’s Sauna. What the hell was Harry doing? Observing? Anyway, I ignore, at least then.

We have our “honest” talk at Romits, and then Harry leaves. My head is still spinning so I sleep, and soon the rest follow. The end. But not the end of my head-ache – because the annoying piece of shit still haunts me when I get up. For everyone who still doesn’t get it – its painfully annoying to have a headache on New Years.

New Years is over-rated. It’s an excuse to celebrate, but it’s fun none the less. I celebrate it, and that is a little hypocritical (sorry Ali!) in its own way. But hey fun is fun, and even if New Years eve wasn’t the funnest of fun, it was still an experience.

Happy New Year to everyone, however random you are to me. Let’s hope this year is greater, more eventful and more fruitful than the last. Enjoy…

P.S. A long post, but another memory successfully created.

Monday, December 25, 2006

Facebook please?

The latest guilty-pleasure to rapidly pervade through the world-wide-web is Facebook! So first step for all non-facebookers should be: Get a Facebook, quick. [http://www.facebook.com]

Why? It's one the best ways of keeping in touch with people. MSN Messenger is good, this is a as good, if not better. The beauty of it is its user-friendliness and it's really easy build a network of randomly connected friends. Picture-uploading is awesome, and shite easy and wall-posting is brilliant. It's easy, not complicated, and very, very addictive. It keeps you updated on everyone you want to be updated on even though you are too scared to admit so. :P

Not convincing enough? Ask anyone who has a Facebook! In short, get one, it's worth it! And add me. :P

P.S. Merry Merry Christmas to everyone, especially to Jesus' followers.

Monday, December 18, 2006

Dubai International Film Fest – DIFFing Around


I volunteered for this “prestigious” festival, thanks to a few ads in the newspaper, some positive Ish-related motivation and due to the convincing nature of the DIFF website. For all the hype it created, DIFF was just okay, at least volunteering-wise. Fine Shah Rukh Khan showed up and got jumped by the usually fanatically over-eccentric gals, and so did Richard Gere – wow! Old ‘Hot’ Guy – YAY! Stop making such a big deal out of it. *8-|*

Initially when Romit and I went for the “Volunteer Recruitment Session”, I was awed by the good organization and the convincing positive speeches, making it sound as if volunteering at DIFF was everything you could dream of. I have to give it to Bob and the gang – we volunteers were treated too damn well. We got Dhs 45 vouchers to places like Dome and Schzzam for our “40-minute” lunch or dinner breaks. Obviously, “40 minutes” didn’t happen, but a couple of hours did. We got a lot of goodies, a lot of free screening vouchers, a funky-enough t-shirt, a lot of food and a lot of ‘make-us-feel-important’. Well done you guys, but hey, face the facts. We volunteers were actually doing shit. We were tearing tickets, clicking counters to count the number of film-watchers, ushering guests, ushering guests to the other ushers, flirting with the so called “hot girls”, eating great food, making once-and-only friends, and trying to feel important. We weren’t even half important. I feel they had enough paid ushers (the ones in the blue shirts) to handle the event. Also, there were just too many of us volunteers to the extent that unthinkable jobs were being created. This was so over-free-employment.

Okay fine, maybe I am being a little too negative. I must admit I had a decent time. I definitely enjoyed the food and got to know a couple of really nice and interesting people who I hope I will keep in touch with. I also got to know a group of DPS guys, who knew me (somehow) and found out why our school is so much better and more intellectual than the other Indian schools. These DPS guys were cool, but were too damn Bollywood for me. They were worried more about getting the most funked out phone than anything else, and what blew me away was that they were trying to justify themselves. Though one of them did genuinely entertain me, all of them were automatic-unintended entertainers, if you get what I mean. Fun-fill-ment indeed. I also got to spend time with a long lost friend who I only only meet when this other person is in town, whether this other person is there with us at that moment or not – weirdly enough.

I attended 2 of my 3 shifts. The first one was at the Mall Of The Emirates which was half decent – had a scrumptious lunch at Schzzam with 5 other people out of which I think I will never see 4 of them again. Note: At Schzzam there was this really awesome Magician who really and brilliantly, truly brilliantly entertained us while we awaited our food. Tejas, this Spanish Magician-dude would have made you go madder than you have ever gone before.

My second shift was at the Madinat Arena, i.e. The Red Carpet Zone, which was also half decent. Ishika was great company on a very ‘honest’ day (go figure) and so where the other 5 people who we will also, probably never meet again. Food was once again scrumptious, but painstakingly late at the Dome. We were eating like kings. Anyway 2 half-decent shifts make one decent experience, right?

Bob and the other Volunteer-In-charge people did a good job of handling the volunteers. The problem was that there weren’t enough genuine volunteers. Some wanted the girls, some wanted a learning/fun experience (like me :P) and only a minimum few actually wanted to make the most of this Film-Fest experience, beyond just the ticket-tearing and guest-ushering. And that was kinda sad to see.

When it comes to the Dubai International Film Festival itself, it was glorified with all the “big names” and the “big movies”. It was just about putting forth a grand image of the festival. I almost fell into the superficial “grandeur” of the event, but thanks to a local film-maker, I was bestowed with the right facts. A film festival is not about “big names” and “big films”, it’s about showcasing those off-beat films that don’t make it to the cinema theaters. It’s about giving an opportunity to the opportunity-less in a rapidly growing industry. It’s not about showing popular films that will hit the theaters soon. DIFF failed to uplift the true essence of a film-festival. Yes it did make an effort by hosting an Local Short Film competition, but there was too much concentration on the popularity aspect of films. But I guess the commercial approach is important for the sustenance of the festival. But so much of commercialism? Maybe not.

P.S. Any experience is an experience, good or bad, and it teaches you something or the other. So I apologize for the pessimism.

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Kickstarting Footballism

Footballism officially starts. To all my ignorant blog-readers, Footballism is this other blog I have started to divert all my football energy away from this blog, keeping the contents of this blog more general, and preventing un-required judgmental Bajpai comments as to how football-oriented this blog is. Footballism now has it's first proper exclusive post, and will be, hopefully updated frequently, especially after mega encounters like Arsenal-Chelsea for instant. Man Utd-Liverpool: umm maybe not - those teams aren't that great now, are they?

Anyway visit it here: http://footballismity.blogspot.com

P.S. Good luck to Harry and the other guys for their Inter School One Act Play Competition. We know you guys are gonna kick ass, so please do it royally.

Monday, December 04, 2006

PRR


Guess who is joining the Premiership Rat Race (PRR) of use-lots-off-wealth-on-team-to-become-rich-and-famous – our very own, Sheikh Mohammed Bin Rashid Al Maktoum the proud ruler of Dubai. Yes Govind, you can partially rejoice – his Highness is planning to pitch in 480 million pounds to buy the living hell out of Liverpool. So, that somewhat means ,that Arsenal is the only nor-foreign-bought club, which ironically has a non-foreign coach and only 1 English player in its top playing 16. Right. The English, I tell you.

Anyway, why Liverpool is all happy is because now they can get a new stadium, and be totally wannabe’s of Arsenal. It’s okay Govind, it’s only natural for any club to do so. What Sheikh Mohammed is going to be doing is clearing all Liverpool debts (which not surprisingly is about 80 million pounds), buying controlling stake worth 180 million pounds and investing in the new stadium that will be built in Stanley Park. He, the owner of Dubai International Capital (DIC), is one rich man. Respect sir, and please don’t kick me out of the country.

It’s also fun, yes plain fun, to note that Dubai now indirectly owns major chunks of 2 clubs - Arsenal, with all the ‘Emirates’ sponsoring and Liverpool, with the latest DIC take-over bid. What’s even more fun to note is that now the premiership might turn out to be a 3 way battle – The Americans (Glazers & Man Utd) v/s The Russians (Abrahamovich & Chelsea) v/s The Middle East (Sheikh Mohammed & Liverpool). Boy oh boy – World War III indeed.

On a more saving-my-ass note, actually quite seriously, I have deep respect for our ruler Sheikh Mohammed. He is one hell of a strategist, and his vision is boundless but practical. Dubai is where it is because of him. Hats off on a great job sir, and good luck with Liverpool.

P.S. This post is a mixture of football and Dubai, so you’ll find it on both of my blogs. =)

Saturday, December 02, 2006

40

I rock. From 6:30 AM on the 27th of October to 10:30 PM on the 28th of October, I did not sleep. This didn’t even include a 15-minute nap or a ‘siesta’ or what some call a few minutes of ‘power sleep’. Hah! It was the longest day of my life. From reaching the pinnacle of tension, to having the highest amount of adrenalin flowing through my veins, to dislocating fingers, to "DIFF"-ing, not only was my day friggin’ long, it was as eventfully dramatic. I most probably failed in my physics exam, dislocated my pinki, barfed on the school doc, and missed the entire inter-house cricket season. Shit, that ain’t any good. Damn. I suck.

Having never touched my physics book, on the eve of my second term physics examination, I am somewhat confident that I would be able to study enough to get the passing marks. But as I tread along, slowly, on the path to physical enlightenment, my fuel tank hits empty. Enter Red Bull. Time to revert to a previously non-existent plan B. My aim: to survive the night and reach as close as I can to the sweet grapes of physical thoroughness. Also, even if the plan fails, I would at least be able to gloat about the great over night survival. 24 hours of nocturn-ity complete.

The morning dawns, faster than it should have. My studies progress, slower than they should have. I finish half the portion, and my time is up. Red Bull seemed to be quite a saviour. It is definitely inspiring for it has printed on it: “Only drink in times of great stress. It will help provide extra energy and enhance your performance”. Inspiring indeed.

I finally reach school, buoyed up with drug-like energy, thanks to the ‘wings’ that I have received. Assembly ends on a sour note – the swimming team are told that they will not take part in their Inter School Meet due to a lack of practice, and my unfortunate self is a part of this team. However, it turns out to be just a threat, but anyway I don't go for the meet, because my eventually, my pinki betrays me.

Anyway, my physics exam begins, and the more I read the question paper, the more I forget. In the compulsory section, I half-confidently attempt only 5 questions of the 20. Not bad, huh? Section A of Part II, are worse, I attempt 2 subparts of 2 big questions instead of attempting the entire questions. Section B and Section C are not as bad, but aren't that pretty either. Anyway, all is not lost, I might just scrape through.

The exam ends, and I am glad that I don't have to come home and study, instead I have swimming practice. Practice is good, except for the fact that I learn that my kicks are very poor compared to everyone else’s. I don't have any strength in my legs. Now this definitely hurts the pride and ego of an individual who is considered to be a good sportsman. You start questioning God and the human body. How can you run decently fast, kick a football decently hard, but not be able to kick the water hard enough in swimming? I am confused, but it is explained to me that for different activities, a million different muscles are developed, and those swimming-kicking muscles of mine were very weak. Right.

Practice done, time for our Inter-House cricket match. (Please note: Right now, I haven’t devoured any sort of food. All that has sustained me is my second Red Bull. It has been 30 hours since I have slept.) The cricket match starts, and after just 3 balls, my inter house cricket career ends. Junaid plays a cut shot, and I try and dive for the ball. The ball reaches the boundary, buy my tiny left pinki (i.e. my left tiny finger) gets stuck into the ground. My body, however, continues under the physical force of momentum, and that dislocates my dear pinki, and it almost lies hanging at an angle of about 75 degrees. Not pretty. I relocate it back to it’s place with a “thuk” and then run to the doctor. My body then takes its turn to betray me. It decides to take advantage/revenge on the pain it’s feeling, by sweeping me with nausea and dizziness. I then vomit, and try to control vehemently, but I cannot prevent myself from spewing a bit onto the unfortunate doctor. But the puking helps. I regain self control and apologize profusely to the doctor. The Principal, the Headmaster, the Senior Supervisor, the Admin Officers, the English teacher, the Cricket teachers, the Afternoon-Activities coordinator, and the remaining world suddenly come bursting onto the scene. Lying in bed, due to the nausea, I am told unanimously by all: you will be okay!

I am then ‘rushed’ to hospital, and I go quite reluctantly, only after having a verbal war with the nurse – “I want to watch the cricket match.” But that isn’t good enough. Then I am very thankful to Ali, Tejas and Romit who succeed in entertaining my ass off. They want to come to the hospital, but are blown away by the furious nurse, who had earlier given me glucose, that actually tasted really good. I am fine, no real pain, only a slight niggling pain when I move my little left pinki.

The journey to the hospital is boring. Dad’s a doctor, and he works at Welcare, so obviously I exploit the situation. Even then it takes me an hour before I get to see the doc. Meanwhile I am observing a Filipino wife in her black ‘Burkha’ with a broken leg ordering her Arab husband around. That’s weird indeed, but common in this part of the world. The x-ray shows nothing, but the doc assumes ligament damage. And then finally I reach home without any big plaster to show off, but only this small piece of scrap bandage. Boring patch of the post I know – but still. :P

Well any reasonable human being would have then gone to sleep, especially when there was puking, breaking fingers, etc involved in the previous 6 hours. But I don’t follow normality. It has now been 36 hours without sleep. Mum tells me to sleep. I ignore. I have the DIFF, i.e. Dubai International Film Festival Volunteer Recruitment Session, to attend. The Red Bull energy is still pumping, I make my way there, despite my sister’s warning of a ‘sudden collapse’. Don’t worry nothing of that sort happens, at least then.

Finally we, as in Romit and I, reach the Knowledge Village Auditorium, which I am pretty impressed with. We see a bunch of Modern High girls there. Obviously. What follows is a long lecture and a lot of, “Eh, she’s hot man” and “No, not my type Anish” (note: I am not referring to any Modern High girls there, so please prevent pervasion of rumours). I meet an Al-Mu’atmaar ex-mate Alex, who is btw, a girl, and who is also half-Irish, half-Punjabi. Yeah, don’t ask. She doesn’t remember my name, but at least she remembers me, so kudos to her on that. The evening, otherwise isn’t that exciting. We register for three 6-hour shifts as ticket-checkers or line-keepers or seat-showers – yeah not too exciting either, but it’s an experience in its own way.

Romit and I then eat some heavy KFC and then make tired conversation on our journey home. I arrive to greet my sister, and an official collapse hits me. My sister, the darling she is, irons my school clothes for me, as I treat my semi-broken pinki with ice. I then look at my watch. 10:30 PM – 40 hours. Wow. One hell of a rollercoaster, and one hell of a ‘long’ day.

P.S. Song to listen to: Matchbox 20 – Long Day.
And today, this one person that I care about, and who apparently cares/cared about me, asks me to give up on her. I cry and then laugh at ‘God’, and then at world.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Transitional Blogiarrhea

Okay. The past few posts have been admit tingly random and blah. I didn’t like them, and nor did many of you. The “Going ONE Better” was so fake-sounding. I so over-exaggerated everything. Fine ONE TV is doing well, but it’s not as if the world had found a cure for AIDS. It sounded like that didn’t it? “Oh One is brilliant” and "so is their website" and "wow" this and "wow" that – bull shit. ONE's good, and I appreciate what ONE’s done, but there was no friggin’ substance in my post. It seems as though I was trying too bloody hard. My sister blurted that out to me yesterday, as frankly as she always does, and however much I am not supposed to 'like' it, I appreciate the honesty, because it does make sense. Thanks & damn.

And to add salt to these unsympathetic wounds, “anonymous’s” were on a rampage. What I am about to say does not refer to any of the genuine anonymous commenters who actually constructively criticize and state their opinion. In fact I respect their genuineness. But what’s annoying is when people from my school, who are in my friggin’ class, who I probably know damn well, start posting blatantly offensive, anonymous comments which make no sense and are just put forth to satisfy their desire to extract envious, sadistic pleasure. Screw you guys. It’s evident that you guys don’t have the balls to have an identity, and that you prefer masking your sadism behind this “anonymous” image. It’s so shit, and it just shows how fake you people are, because you require some other random anonymous image to prove to the world that this blogger sucks. Grow up guys, quick.

Let me quote a few examples:

“Anonymous said...

malpani u be a gud advertising agent ... man many companies will come to u onli 4 da reason dat dey hav to advertise their product ..

November 28, 2006 7:32 PM”

What’s the point of saying something like that? I’d rather prefer you tell me what the hell is wrong with my post in a ‘dignified’ manner, as Ashiq puts it, rather than saying such baseless rubbish. Tell me that the post sucked because it lacked substance and effort, and because it was exaggerated. I’ll accept it, and feel bad at the same time, not at you, but at myself. That way, you’ll get your sick sadistic pleasure too.

“Anonymous said...

crap malpani.....advertising for one tv

November 28, 2006 1:24 PM “

Another sad comment…

And I will never get this dude:

“Anonymous said...

No holiday on wed and thurs. That's just effing sad innit?

November 25, 2006 7:21 PM “

Why the hell do you have to go anonymous to say something like that? It’s obvious – you are from my school, probably from my grade, and I don’t think you have anything to hide. Sometimes I just don’t get people. Generally, I try and ignore such bull shit , but I just felt like – WTF? – let’s try and knock some sense in to those that are making this blogosphere a joke.

Rajiv put it rightly to me today at lunch - blogs are suddenly becoming ‘status symbols’ – it’s “hip” to have a blog, and that’s bloody sad. Get a grip of yourself and let’s pursue mature and interesting and worthy-of-reading discussions.

My previous blog post on the summary of the current status of the blogosphere was way out of line. Once again, my sister did the reminding. I breached the most important unsaid rule of blogging. Blogging is never discussed outside the blogosphere, nor is it meant to be ‘reviewed’ like I did in that earlier post. I apologize for that. It’s just that I am in this transitional “Blogiarrhea” where I am not blogstipated, but am just getting to conscious of what I am posting, so I am posting excessively, thinking too much about it, and the result is utter embarrassment on retrospection. “Will my readers like it? Is it cool enough? Is this wise-crack funny or lame?” These are stupid questions I don’t need to ask myself. Suddenly I have become excessively formal and superficial and it’s bothering me. Maybe the pressure of having a decent number of readers is getting to me, and yeah you anonymous ball-less people don’t help either. I am not going to delete the posts that I am not ‘proud’ of because that’s like running away from the truth. And I hate that.

As for you commenters/readers, I love reading your genuine comments, whether they are appreciative or dogmatic or derogatory, as long as they have substance. So please continue to do so. Lose the unnecessary anonymous comments though. This obviously does not refer to those anonymous’ who just want to state their substantiated opinion in a dignified manner. That’s perfectly fine. All bloggers want comments, and these comments sustain us in their own little way. Also, there exists an unsaid competition with these comments amidst fellow bloggers, which is only natural. It’s not necessarily good, and it’s worse when people try and re-state and glorify something so unnecessary just to draw more sick pleasure.

On Harry’s blog…

“Other said...

Congrats, you've got more posts on your 3rd post than Anish got in his 20+ posts. Not a competition I know. You've written a good post that everyone has a different stand on.

6:34 AM “

This ‘Other’ dude is definitely from our school. Why try and hide yourself, and why the fuck do you have to mention my name and get me unnecessarily involved? You knew you were trying to sting my ego with something like that. Fine if you wrote that comment as yourself, as someone I knew, I wouldn’t care because I would know you were trying to pull my leg. But the very fact that you went anonymous proves your friggin’ sadistic motives. Harry got 52 comments on that and I am proud of him. But you, you need to lose the polite way of bringing in something that had nothing to do with Harry's initial post.

Anyway, I won’t be surprised if you anonymous commenters flip over something like this. I really don’t care. It's only in your sadistic nature to rub salt in open wounds. Just like you have a friggin’ opinion on everything, so do I. But the only difference is that I have the balls to say it as myself.

Anyway, this transitional phase should pass. All phases teach you something and this has too. I need to worry less about what the world will think about me, and try and prevent myself from glorifying an image that ‘my blog greatest’. This blog is for me and I want to enjoy it. Screw everything else.

P.S. For all the bajpai-like-thinkers, I have started, or rather, am starting, a parallel blog dedicated only to my passion - football.


Sunday, November 26, 2006

Going "One" Better


ONE TV, or rather "Dubai ONE TV" recently changed their look. They re-did their adverts, their teasers, their logo and added more style to the rapidly improving channel. I am downright proud to say that the new look is funky and very, very professional. Gone are the Ch. 33 days that concentrated more on horse-racing and 'The Bold & The Beautiful', than good entertainment.

The whole 'red comma' effect is brilliant. The 'Matrix' hit-off of using the 'comma' as bullets is, more than anything, very professionally done, and downright cool. The whole trampoline and ribbon effect with the comma's and the 3-note ONE TV tune is quite awesome too, both looks-wise and brain-wise. Don't know what I am talking about? Check out the 'One TV' fillers - "ongoing entertainment" indeed.

And the channel is not just superficially efficient. They've bought rights for 'Desperate Housewives' and air a brilliant plethora of fascinating programs. Even though the addition of 'Desperate Housewives' was done a year later here than in the rest of the world, ONE TV succeeds in giving a holistic combination of entertainment to satisfy all needs, and what's even more worthy of a mention is that, these guys at ONE seem desperate to do better, and that's always good sign, ain't it?

The reason for this post - I was highly impressed by ONE, and maybe I really enjoyed today's 'Friends' episode aired on it. But none the less, ONE TV kicks MBC 4's ass, right now at least. As for the other Middle East channels, they are pretty poor in comparison, and have a lot to catch up on. Learn from the 'one' and the only pride-earner!

P.S. I am in no way affiliated to ONE TV, and in no way is this some publicity effort for them. My appreciation is genuine. And to add, even their website is brilliant.

Friday, November 24, 2006

The Blogging Bug...

Almost everyone's got it now, and it's spreading like fire on fuel. Brilliant.
Everyone has a blog. Everyone that doesn't have one, wants one. Yes ALI, you do too. Admit it. Admit it.

From Shweta's republican attacks to Harry's homosexuality, things are indeed getting interesting. Nothing "Secret-Dubai-awe-stirring-like" though - Harry's coming close. Ashiq's getting wiser, but his blog ain't going anywhere, even though the 3 posts he has are brilliantly brilliant. Consistency is vital. The Cryptic is somewhat revived, thank God. Romit's memory is pushing along. Vent-spaces are growing and daring moves are being made - 'Sex & Dubai' - unbelievable. 'Sex & Dubai' (who is referred to as a person) is actually a part of the UAE Blog Community. Oh, and I advice all you fellow UAE-based bloggers to register to the UAE Blog Community to increase hits, and spread the fact that "they know they want it". Also registering yourself with Technorati is another way of officially establishing yourself in the blogosphere.

All you other budding dogmats (:P), get hold of a blog. It's simple, it's a way of growing, it's entertaining, it's your way of being a part of the world wide web that is making our world smaller and smaller, it's your newspaper, it's your memory, it's your way of being heard, it's your way of connecting with world and making those previously-impossible contacts, it's your space - you do what you want with it - enjoy it. Rajiv, Republican - you would do really well with one.

Blog on!

P.S. Maths = screwed.

Monday, November 20, 2006

Reco-s

Anything to get past the earlier post, I thought I would put up some of the stuff that I listen to. Many a time, I find it hard to find good music, and if you find yourself in the same rut, maybe this will help you.
  1. Meatloaf & Marion Raven - It's All Coming Back To Me Now: Personally, I really like it. It's one of those slowish rock songs, with a lot of piano. But what makes it brilliant is the duet between Meatloaf and Raven, it's beautifully put together.
  2. Oasis - Masterplan: Known to most as emotional or "cry-ey" song makers , Oasis fail to disappoint with another similar rendition. But hey, it's still really good. It's a very new song, and will do well on the charts. A must hear.
  3. Christina Aguilera - Hurt: Yeah fine, everyone considers her to be one of the "Britney-Spears" types, but no one can deny her ability to sing. Hurt is an okay song technically, but Christina Aguilera's voice will just blow you away. Shit, she is awesome. It starts of as a piano acoustic, and then moves into some drums and violin. I really enjoy listening to it.
  4. The Scorpions - Hurricane 2000: Ali made me listen to this, and the intro just makes me listen to it over and over again. It's a re-make of the Scoripions-hit, Rock You Like A Hurricane, but with an orchestra backing it. Again, brilliant.
  5. Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most: This Tejas recommended to me, in his bid to tell me how he could relate so much to it. Sometimes, that's what makes a song awesome, the fact that you can relate to every word. Anyway, it's a good song. I like the lead singer's voice.
  6. Jimmy Eat World - Pain: I love the pace of this song, and the name "pain" is very daunting. I love listening to it!
  7. Good Charlotte - Emotionless: A very emotion-full song - that's why I like it.
  8. Matchbox Twenty - Soul: I had to put an unheard-of Matchbox Twenty song to pay homage to my favourite band. This song is full of energy. Maybe you won't like it when you hear it for the first time, but the words and the passion makes it a very close-to-the-heart song once you start liking it.
  9. Snow Patrol Featuring Martha Wainwright - Set The Fire To The Third Bar: The new Snow Patrol song that really grows on you. This one has been on my playlist for quite some time. It once, meant a lot to me.
  10. Razorlight - America: It's a very nice song to listen. Just nice. I thought I did not like it, but then I heard it randomly and I was like "nice".
A few hard songs which I love listening to at full volume when I am pissed off or when I require energetic inspiration:
  1. Cobra Starship - Snakes On A Plane
  2. 30 Seconds To Mars - The Kill
  3. Shinedown - Save Me
  4. Crossfade - Cold
  5. 3 Doors Down - This Time (Tejas' recommended)
  6. My Chemical Romance - Helena
  7. Incubus - Megalomaniac (Nishant's recommended)
  8. Tantric - Mourning
  9. Silverchair - Tomorrow
Enjoy!

P.S. Any recommendations?

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Random Questioning...


If a human you consider "great", or "good", or "God-like" or whom you have great "respect" for, dies, will you mourn his death? Or will you celebrate what he stood for? - His "great" existence.

Why do I ask? Last year on the 25th of November, George Best, one of the greatest English footballers to grace the earth, died. As usual, the following weekend, all premiership matches had a minute of "silence" to remember this great footballer. But the silence changed to cheers, loud, energetic cheers from the fans at Old Trafford hailing their hero and saying Amen for everything he did and stood for. The passionate reverberations could be heard and felt through the television, and all the commentators said was why mourn the death of a great man when you can appreciate "him" for what he was? I bet George Best would have preferred the cheer to the one minute silence. We all die. He was 59, some still consider that "young", but his days were numbered anyway. So accept death, but rejoice his greatness, right? I mean wouldn't you prefer that- the cheer of appreciation, when you die, to the mournful dreary silence? I would.

P.S. I don't know, this question has been stuck in my head for quite, quite a while, almost an year, I had to blurt it out.

Friday, November 17, 2006

Redial Entertainment




Post board-exam time, Redial Entertainment will begin officially.

What we are all about:

We like doing things. Obviously. We all have some talent or the other and we don't want to waste it. So we plant do something useful with it. Redial Entertainment is, as Tejas said, a Non-Profit organization, at least financially. The profit we want from this is the exposure, the fun, the references, the recommendations and over and above it all, the experience.

What we'll offer:

A plethora of randomly connected things - that's what we will offer. Our main concentration will be media-related projects, but the break down below of what each of us will do for Redial Entertainment, will give you an idea as to what Redial Entertainment will exactly offer.

Members:
  1. Anish Malpani - Manager/Head of Production/Editor/ Brand Manager
  2. Tejas Menon - Assistant Manager/Director Of Photography/Assistant Sound-Advisor/ Assistant Brand Manager/ Editor
  3. Ali Yar Khan - Lead Guitarist (up for "loan", will play for those who deservingly require him)/Music & Sound Advisor
  4. Harendra Kapur - Head Of Advertising/Voice Over-er/Actor (on loan)/Creative Advisor
  5. Romit Sen - Head Cameraman/Assistant Editor/Head Archiver/Video-Creative Advisor
Special Advisory Team & Support:
Mr Axel Rodericks
Mrs Sharen Lobo

What we plan to specialize in:
  1. Video/Presentations for any purpose (Professional Backgrounds, Professional Video Support, Amateur Trailers, Amateur Advertisements, Memory Based Videos, Fun Videos, etc)
  2. Lead Guitarist Available
  3. Sound/Music Advice
  4. Actor/Voice Over-giver available
  5. Background Music + Minus Tracks
  6. Amateur Band Management & Support
NOTE: Redial Entertainment is very flexible. We will do whatever we can. If we are told to handle an event, and we see potential fun and experience-giving experience, we will go for it.

We are not going force anyone to pay us for our work. Materialistically, all we want is references and recommendations.

Visit us: www.redial-entertainment.blogspot.com
What you will get from the site:

Our ambitions, and all our previous videos. We are trying to upload as many as we can. Plus, we will get a domain later, and make things more professional.

What we want you to do:

If you want any of the above mentioned things processed, please contact us.
If you know anyone who might want the above mentioned things processed, please contact us.
Any support will be appreciated.
Thank you

Contact Us:
redial.entertainment@gmail.com

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Stress...

Stress is everywhere. Exam time - it's around even more. Everyone, everywhere, is going through 'shit'. So what all us "going-through-shit-ers" need is more stress. Confused? My theory - "Beyond a point, shit stress converts to fun stress, so get stressed above that point." I really don't know what I am saying.

"Calm is for wimps. Get real. Get stressed."

Some stress-increasing maneuvers:
  1. Choose friends you don't like.
  2. Be late. Always.
  3. Behave like a sardar...
  4. Go to the premiere of Casino Royale. Sit next to people. Talk loudly.
  5. On your way out of the cinema, discuss the end of Casino Royale loud enough for the world to hear.
  6. Record the sound of a dentist's drill. Play it at bedtime.
  7. Recognize your limitations. Then ignore them.
  8. Recognize other peoples' limitations. Then tell them what to do.
  9. Before reaching the paying counter of Carrefour, remove all the bar-codes of your shopping so they won't scan.
  10. If you can't do it, don't let others do it.
  11. The best policy - Be honest. All the time. With everyone. About everything.
  12. The better policy - Lie. All the time. To everyone. About everything.
  13. Practise rudeness, not just to make others feel bad, but also to make you feel bad about yourself. It's a win-win situation.
  14. Fart in confined spaces. But only if other people are present.
  15. Burp, and then say "Bless Me".
  16. Hear others burp, and then say "Bless You".
  17. Whine daily.
  18. Become a politician.
  19. Have Red Bull before going to bed.
  20. Never return things you borrow.
  21. Get a job writing junk mail.
  22. Blog about "how you open the bathroom door".
  23. Take credit for successes you have nothing to do with.
  24. Buy a multi-alarm clock. Set the alarm for every 30 minutes. Then go to sleep.
  25. HFZ - Make yourself a Humour Free Zone. If you ever find yourself laughing, go to the bathroom and get yourself together.
  26. Always borrow money from your friends. Forget or put off repaying them for as long as possible.
  27. Make study schedules you cannot keep up with.
  28. Leave everything to the last minute.
  29. At family get-togethers, start talking about the following: sex.
  30. Be a wet blanket.
  31. Write down your worries. Read the list before you go to bed.
  32. Learn to snore.
  33. Shout at people at least twice a day.
  34. Try your best to make every competitor know that you are licking ass to become a prefect.
  35. Buy shoes one size too small.
  36. Always criticize everyone's clothes.
  37. Become like Karan. (sorry, I am in the mood)
  38. Blame everyone else for your failure.
  39. Remember that there is absolutely no point in talking about someone behind their back unless they get to hear about it.
  40. Never have a bath.
  41. Forget brushing your teeth.
  42. Eat lots and lots of garlic, and then ask your crush for her number.
  43. Make rumours. Spread them.
  44. Intentionally fail in your exams.
  45. Join the "best" school.
  46. Try and enjoy the stress...
  47. Do you have any more of these?


P.S. Gone are the stress-free days so make use of the stress-ful ones. Most of the above quotes were taken from "The Little Book Of Stress" written by Rohan Candappa. One of the quotes in it is, " Take credit for successes you have nothing to do with." Thanks Rohan.
No offense intended.

Monday, November 13, 2006

Oh Vice Captain, My Vice Captain!


One person I haven't formally thanked yet is Aaron Luke Gomes, my vice-captain. The deadliest finisher of our team who spear-heads the attack, Aaron has been great support throughout the 5 years that has ultimately led to this mammoth victory.

From the Al Diyafah U-16 Inter School Football Tournament victory, to all the Inter House Football victories, to last year's elimination, to this year's victory - Aaron has always been there beside me, and I have always prized his opinion. Besides that Aaron, our combination on the field has been more than deadly, and I love playing with you. This time 5 of the goals we scored were because of our combination!

Respect Aaron! Tomorrow, when we get the trophy in front of the school, the both of us will lift it, with the team and everyone else beside/behind/around us. =)

P.S. I did not forget, it just kind off slipped...